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"As we sail through life, don't avoid rough water,

sail on because calm waters won't make a skillful sailor"

I love the qoute so much..coz its kinda inspirations to me..when im down..i alway remember dis qoute..and remember that Allah always with us..mak selalu pesan everithing happen ade sebab..dan pasti ada hikmahnya..

sekarang ni tgh down la..its all becoz of my life..my work n the L thinggy..

keje slow..mcm xde progress..life lak mcm nothin intersting..bosan je..

keje..then blk keje..lepak umah...tgk tv men internet..nothing much to do...

and L..still hoping everithing will back to normal..

sinar cahaya ayat kursi

sumone shared this article with me..so i think i want to share with others..its sumtin we should noe and practice..

Dalam sebuah hadis, ada menyebut perihal seekor syaitan yang duduk di atas pintu rumah. Tugasnya ialah untuk menanam keraguan di hati suami terhadap kesetiaan isteri di rumah dan keraguan di hati isteri terhadap kejujuran suami di luar rumah. Sebab itulah Rasulullah tidak akan masuk rumah
sehingga Baginda mendengar jawaban salam dari isterinya. Di saat itu syaitan akan lari bersama-sama dengan salam itu.

Hikmat Ayat Al-Kursi mengikut Hadis-hadis:

1) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi bila berbaring di tempat tidurnya, Allah SWT mewakilkan dua orang Malaikat memeliharanya hingga subuh.

2) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir setiap sembahyang Fardhu, dia akan berada dalam lindungan Allah SWT hingga sembahyang yang lain.

3) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir tiap sembahyang, dia akan masuk syurga dan barang siapa membacanya ketika hendak tidur, Allah SWT akan memelihara rumahnya dan rumah-rumah disekitarnya.

4) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir tiap-tiap shalat fardhu, Allah SWT menganugerahkan dia setiap hati orang yang bersyukur, setiap perbuatan orang yang benar, pahala nabi2, serta Allah melimpahkan rahmat padanya.

5) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi sebelum keluar rumahnya, maka Allah SWT mengutuskan 70,000 Malaikat kepadanya - mereka semua memohon keampunan dan mendoakan baginya.

6) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir sembahyang, Allah SWT akan mengendalikan pengambilan rohnya dan dia adalah seperti orang yang berperang bersama Nabi Allah sehingga mati syahid..

7) Barang siapa yang membaca ayat Al-Kursi ketika dalam kesempitan niscaya Allah SWT berkenan memberi pertolongan kepadanya.

Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr r.a., Rasulullah S..A..W. bersabda,

"Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat..."

"Utamakan SELAMAT dan SEHAT untuk Dunia-mu, utamakan SHOLAT dan ZAKAT untuk Akhirat-mu"

Subhanallah. ..

perasaan campur2..

yesterday evening got a good new from mak..she said..that she fine and da discharge hospital..syukur sgt2..its just an infaction je kt urine die..no batu karang or buah pinggang..fuh lega sgt2..

then tgh hari follow a*tiah n t*ed2 went to alamanda..they need to post parcel kat supplier..so me lak post my mum nye brg..then we took our lunch kt noo*dle sta*tion..not bad la..singgah sebentar ke mph..coz they need to buy sumtin..so sy pon jln sekeliling..n found a novel..hurm lama gila xbaca novel..since 2yr degree lg da stop..mls n xde supplier..dl slalu pinjm membe..but all her novel da bis baca...bl 1 novel..hehehe then blk..after work lak..g jogging..3 rounds..perghh..lama gila xjogging...tp nak diet sbb nak kurus n want to keep my promise..ku gagahi juga..penat giler..till now still terasa lagi..i think the last time jogging msa 1sem final yrs degree..dats mean da stgh tahun xjogging..mmg rasa mcm nak tercabut la sendi2 ni..hahaha..tp xpe..as a beginning..mmg la ssh..nnt lama2 ok da...

blk smlm..rest je..xlarat..n surf internet kejap..cadang nak kemas brg bw dr kg pon xjadi..bsh bju pon xlarat..pergh..exhausted..penat blk dr kg xhilang lg..da tmbh penat exercise..heehehe..round 10p.m msk blk tok tdo..tp sbb mta xngantuk lg..baca la novel..hurm interesting..then dgr lg ade org jln kt floor i..sigh..its make me feel unsecured sgt2..cuak pon ada..so apa lg..swith off the light..pakai earphone..then tried to sleep..syukur nothing bad happen..Alhamdullilah..hope xde lg la benda ni terjd lg tonite...

a bad monday...

smlm..pg2 da nekad nak kene turun kan berat badan..by hook or by crook..mmg kene..so da planning pg2 tu bl capati..hehehe..menu diet yg plg sy suka..siang lak makan ky*ros kebab..mula2 nak mkn capati lg..tp time ke warta blkan anak tudung yg mak pesan terjmpa ky*ros..lama da cr..kt mines da xde..ptg tu ptt ade class.but cancel last min..frust gak..sbb mula2 nak g jogging..so bl terigt ade class xbw la bju..

so on da way back home singgah la io*i bl some stuff..blk2 tu lepak2 dpn tv n men internet..then dpt a phone called dr mak..she said die kt hospital kene thn wad..last sunday..when i send my mum kt airport...die ade ngadu kt sy..she have difficulty tok buang air kecil...so rasa sakit n xselesa..sy pesan tok jmpa doc..then yesterday..she went to hospital buat check up..malam tu die called me back..she said..dr ckp ade infection kt pundi kencing...but for further conformation..mak kene admitted kt wad smlm then buat testing tok batu karang n buah pinggang..

waaaaaaa...me kt sini risau already..yela..nak g sana jauh..nak mntk cuti kompen xlepas..br blk cuti seminggu ni...xtido mlm sy dibuatnye teringat mak..this mornin she called me again..said the dr akan bg result by today..but rite now xde any news lg..so sy berdoa semua akan ok dan selamat..mak sy tau yg anak die sorg ni sgt2 la cpt menggelabah..nak2 if sumtin related to her..so every time she got prob or sumtin happen..she will never inform me..sbb die takut sy risau n susah hati kat sini..bl sy tnye napa xbgtau..mesti die ckp..xnak sy risau..nnt terganggu study..xdpt blaja..hurm..itulah perangai mak..always put her children first br perasaan sendiri..

then after mak called tu...mmg xle dok diam..tp sbb da kepenatan..terlelap kejap..i think dlm10 min later terjg blk..hurm sbb terdgr bunyi footstep dkt my floor..alamak..mmg takut la smlm..sbb kt floor i tu ade 4 buah rumah..2 buah umah empty..umah sblh lak owner mmg jrg2 blk..slalu weekend je..so just my house jela yg berpenghuni..almost 30min la dgr org tu legar2 kt my floor..adeh2..cuak2..so switch off tv..laptop semua..tutup lmpu..take a bath..then trus msk blk...lepak blk..but still cannot sleep..isau kan mak...lyn msg jap..then my hp lak buat prob..lately asik prob..sim registration failed..asik kne on off je keje...last2 tertido gak kol 2 lbh..hurm...dugaan tol semlm..

papepon..still hoping mak will be fine..xde apa2 berlaku...

PMS...

setiap bulan...sy mesti ade problem dgn pms...sighh...hate that time..erm tp ade gak certain org yg xtau apa itu pms..or pre-menstru*al syn-drome..n x aware bl perempuan kene pms..so arini terlebih rajin..sy pon copy n paste la article ni:-

Pre-menstrual syn*drome (known as PMS) involves a variety of physical, mental, and behavioral symptoms tied to a woman’s menstrual cycle. By definition, symptoms occur during the days before a woman's period starts. They usually go away after the first day or two of flow.
PMS is a complex health concern. Up to 80% of women experience some symptoms of PMS. Scientists cannot agree on its cause or the best way to treat PMS.

• PMS usually occurs in women in their fourth and fifth decades of life (aged 30-49 years). For a small number of women, it can be severely incapacitating. A woman who has had a hysterectomy (removal of the uterus) may still experience PMS if at least one ovary remains.
• Because many different processes may contribute to PMS, methods of treatment vary widely and can include medical and alternative approaches. Surgery is a last resort.
• As many as 3-8% of women may have a more severe condition called pre*menstrual dys*phoric dis*order (PMDD). PMS and PMDD are not the same. Women with PMDD become seriously depressed for a week or more before their periods. PMS is shorter, usually milder, and involves more physical symptoms. The two may occur together, or a woman may have one and not the other.
  
  The most common symptoms include:
• Headache
• Swelling of ankles, feet, and hands
• Backache
• Abdominal cramps or heaviness
• Abdominal pain
• Abdominal fullness, feeling gaseous
• Muscle spasms
• Breast tenderness
• Weight gain
• Recurrent cold sores
• Acne flare-ups
• Nausea
• Bloating
• Constipation or diarrhea
• Decreased coordination
• Food cravings
• Less tolerance for noises and lights
• Painful menstruation

Other symptoms include:

• Anxiety or panic
• Confusion
• Difficulty concentrating
• Forgetfulness
• Poor judgment
• Depression
• Irritability, hostility, or aggressive behavior
• Increased guilt feelings
• Fatigue
• Slow, sluggish, lethargic movement
• Decreased self-image
• Sex drive changes, loss of sex drive
• Paranoia or increased fears
• Low self-esteem

this article sy dpt dr website wwwdotnlmdotnihdotgov and wwwdotemedicinehealthdotcom

hurm..br2 ni..sy mengalami pms agak teruk skit...mmg every month akan pms..but dis time terover la skit...slalu bl over pms..yg jd mangsa miss A*tiah chan...sbb dat time..sy akan cpt mara dgn die..kalo sy mara..sy akan diamkan diri tanpa berckp dr pg smpai ptg..time tu..she will see an invisible sign 'DO NOT DISTURB'... nasib baek dia paham saya..so dia xamik ati..dat y she is my bestfriend..hehehe...

bila sy pms..sy akan jadi cpt menggelabah..senggugut yg kronik..kurang sabar..low self esteem..pastu lg la suka pikir negative..yela da low self esteem mcm2 la kita pikir..yg xlogik lak tu,..erm till br2 ni sumone get annoyed or rimas with me..sbbnye me suka pikir bukan2...erm i need to control la my pms..from the reading..its said that need to change the lifestyle, then support from family, friends and others oso can help to prevent pms...ade worst cases smpai kene jmpa doc...erkk sy xmo la smpai mcm tu..

pd a*tiah n that person or anyone else yg tereffect ngan my pms..im feel so sorry ek..nnt sy cuma control...huhuhuhu.....

hari raya aldilfitri

hari raya tahun ni agak berbeza dgn tahun2 seblmnye...
sbb b4 dis..kebiasaannya kami akan beraya dirumah terlebih dahulu..then bru beraya ke rumah nenek belah ayah dan mak..tahun ni pulak..both my nenek beraya di rumah kami...tok juadah hari raya..mak masak kari ayam dan sambal sotong..sambal sotong my mum is the best in the world..org dtg umah slalu cr sambal sotong dr rendang..rendang lak..makcik tlg masak kan..rendang minang..hehehe...

1st syawal mmg la sgt busy...umah di serang oleh sanak saudara esp belah mak..mmg xsempat tok keluar beraya pon hari tu...berkumpul ramai2 di hari raya mmg 1 kemestian...n mmg meriah..sbb keluarga kami sgt2 la kecoh...bak kata my aunty..blh runtuh umah..hahahaha

2nd day raya pulak umah diserang pulak keluarga belah ayah...n tgh harinya pulak keluarga blh mak berkumpul lg di umah my uncle..mmg tradisi keluarga tok gilir2 untuk menyediakan juadah makan tengah hari...since 1st raya my house..2nd day lak my uncle..then 3rd n 4th lak umah uncle yg len...inilah benda plg besh n ditunggu time raya..sbb dpt kumpul dgn semua sedara mara...time len mmg la ssh berjumpa..dpt la bergurau senda..berkongsi rahsia...

tp 2nd raya je smpt g berkumpul sanak saudara...3rd n 4th syawal sy berkonvoi raya...3rd raya tu pergi ronda kawasan terendak n trus ke sepang..1 of my friend masuk umah baru...n buat rumah terbuka kt sepang tu...my mum risau sgt2 me nak ke sana..yela raya2 ni kan kan byk excident...so setiap jam..sy call mak..inform where am i...bl nak blk..smpai pukul berpa..so xdela mak risau sgt....

4th raya lak..turn my house n ke muar..smpt singgah ke tanjung mas..quite a long time x kesana...dl time kecik2..slalu beriadah ngan my mum kt situ..smbil menikmati rojak petis kt situ..sedap rojak petis tu...

5th raya...duduk umah saja..tlg mak masak..buat makan2..lebih kurang open house la..tp kecil2 lan sahaja..we all buat mee hoon soto..my expertise buat bergedel..asal bergedel je..mesti mak pggl sy buat kan..mak ckp..tgn sy berseni..comel2 je bergedel saya..tp nak suo masak..sy xreti..hehehe....

raya tahun ni,..walau sederhana..tp ttp meriah..byk yg sy pelajari tahun ni..ade perkara gembira..xkurang juga perkara menyedihkan berlaku...nenek yg selama ni xbole berckp akibat strok..da mula tok berckp..ada kemajuan..berita gembira buat kami adik beradik..kalo dl xreti mengadu..tp skarang..bila jmpa je my dad..mula menangis mengadu..mengadu cucu2 nya ni suka menyakat..yg sedih lak xdpt tok diceritakan...xkurang gak rasa bimbang kt hati ni..hopefully everithing will be fine...

tomorrow..blk ke puchong..on da way back..hantar mak n my brothers to klia..nak blk kuching..semoga perjalanan kami selamat...amin...

balik kampung

sekarang ni kat ofis...
tapi mmg xda mood nak buat kerja lansung..hati saya da berada di kampung..sy cuti seminggu..dpt la beraya sakan bersama keluarga..im soooo excited rite now...terasa mcm lambat je masa bergerak....
at 2pm ni..sy akan drive ke klia..amik my family blk dr kuching...then zooomm terus blk melaka....hurm harap2 x byk kete la....rite now kinda worried takut my dad car's xmuaat nak isi our luggage...yela..mine already 3 beg..my mum said..her n my brothers ade 1 beg besar..then my dad nye beg n his golf set lg..aiyork..mau nnt kene mara free ngan my dad bawa baju byk2..mcm cuti sebulan....(what to do...hehehe anak perempuan abah ni xtau nak pakai apa time raya..so bawa je semua baju..n ask my mum to decided....senang cerita)

my mum called me juz now..said their flight delayed...suppose depart at 12.30..but not 12.55 still x call lg..huahuahua...im so excited nak blk raya...smpai buat kerja xtentu arah..then my family flight delay lak....huhuhuhu.....xkisah la..asalkan they all arrive safely at klia...n dpt balik ke kg dgn selamat nye.....hehehe..xsabar nak berbuka puasa dgn family..ni 1st day dlm ramadhan our family cukup korum nak buka puasa...sblm ni smpt buka ngan my mum n sis je...

kesempatan ni..sy nak ucapkan selamat hari raya...maaf zahir dan batin....

miss my mum

sekarang ni...mcm2 la iklan raya keluar kt tv.....hurm...today sy tgk 3 or 4 iklan raya...
but yg paling sy suka...iklan petronas...burung apa?murai..burung apa?murai...i guess most of us familiar with this adv....

iklan ni remind me to 1 pengalaman bersama my mum..
that time my mum asked me to teach her how to use handphone..first time it was fun bl dpt ajar mak apa yg saya tau...sy ajar how to make a call..how to save phone numbers..n plg lama nak ajar mcm mana nak msg...bila sy ajar..emak xpaham..emak tnye blk..cmne nak type msg..sy ajar lg skali..but emak still xreti..die asked me again..sy mula rs bosan..tp sy ttp ajar mak...after few times..mak ckp xpela..mak cuba dl..tp a few days later..mak tnye sy blk benda yg sama..cmne nak type msg..mana nak cr no phone and others about phone..sy ttp ajar mak..tp sampai 1 point..sy jd give up..tp sy ttp ajar mak..cuma intonasi suara sy berbeza..sy jd bosan bl mak asik bertnye perkara yg sama..tp mak xpernah pon mara...mak still bersahaja....setelah tu sy berasa berslh teramat sgt dgn mak..

berbeza dgn mak..bila mak ajar kami math..kami merungut..mak tetap sabar..bila kami buat xbersungguh2 time mak ajar..mak ttp sabar dgn kami...bila mak suruh buat latihan math..kami buat sambil lewa..always make careless mistake..then bl xpaham...mak akan terang n ajar blk..if kami stil xphm lagi..mak akan ajar lg..smpai kami paham..xpernah give up..or mara kami sbb keep asking the same question..betapa besar pegorbanan mak n kesabaran mak terhadap anak2 nya...

kami adik beradik mmg nakal...msg2 ade keras kepala masing2..tp bl mak marah kami..mak xpernah maki atau ckp buruk2 pada kami..mak ckp benda yg baek2...mak slalu ckp apa yg mak ckp tu bagai kan doa pada anak2..baru2 ni..mak mara my lil brother sbb malas blajar...but die xpernah keluar kan perkataan bodoh ke..lembab ke..what she said was...adik mls2 nnt jadi tauke kambing jela( my mom doakan die jd businessman)..plg xpon..bila time exam..kami slalu la called mom tnye psl my lil bro blaja or not..n she will said..die tu profesor..(means da pandai so mls blaja)...hehehe...seronok bl dgr gelaran mak bg pada kami...yg paling sy terharu..setiap malam mak akan bgn awl tok solat hajat..doakan kejayaan dan kebahagian anak2...

sy rasa amat bertuah coz Allah kurniakan mak as my mom..sy sgt2 syg pada mak..sy xsnggup lg tgk hati mak terluka..bl mak terluka..hati sy pon turut terluka..bl mak mara..pasti sy akan rs teramat bersalah..sy cuba buat yg terbaek tok dia..sbb sy syg kan mak sgt2..sy sgt rindukan mak..xsabar nak tunggu jumaat nak jmpa my lovely mama...

Mak...
Selamat Hari Raya..Maaf Zahir dan Batin..
halalkan susu..makan minum juga segalanya...
pengorbanan mak terlalu besar tok di balas...
we love u so much..(from e.t, akak, abg boy n emy)

unhealthy day...

this morning..around 0230am, i still cant sleep...
sbb bosan..i aksed 1 friend to follow me jalan2...hehehe..sy call die..paksa die teman..dalam keterpaksaan die setuju....we went to ampang...tgk pemandangan seluruh kl...a nice view..sy mmg suka g tmpt mcm tu..hahaha..bak kata kwn..kerja bodoh..dtg situ dok sesaja tgk view..then we singgah sungai besi..semata2 nak beli burger tok sahur..then blk ke puchong..on the way back..ade road block la pulak..ops sikap da mulaa...pas ni xle nak bawa laju2 nnt kene saman lak..sapa nak tanggung..aiyark...

blk rumah da pukul 4 lbh..sahur..then dgn senang nye sy tertido lepas tu...bgn pagi lak terasa mls nak keje..mengantuk la..xcukup tido....bl terpikir blk..cmne la leh wat keje gila kua tgh pagi2 buta..juz nak ronda2...kikikiki...

now stop buat keje...internet so slow tok download stuff for my work..da mula tensen...then get emo a bit...hahaha..coz i think i terdelete important msg in my phone..n i still dont read it yets. i just realized terrrdelete dat msg just now..saja2 check log hp..then saw 1 incoming msg dr sumone..but i tau dat time xde dpt msg..means adakah sy terdelete msg tu? desperately want to noe apa yg dia tulis..dlm kepala da terpikir die tulis bad news..huhuhu...

have to admit it..sy seorg yg negative..semua sy akan pikir bad n negative first then only positve...then jadila emo bl mcm2 bende buruk terpikir..padahal..xda pape pon..its just my feeling...selalu emo ku terbuang sia2..cth nya..bila sy msg seseorg mntk maaf...then she/he xreply me back..sy akan pikir die still mara n namo kawan ngan sy..padahl org tu tgh bz..or tgh tdo..

how nak get rid of this feeling..that sms xtau tulis apa..nak tnye pd dat person??kene tunggu next week..aiyark...emo..emo...emo..

pape pon feel raya sy ttp berkobar..akak ckp baju rya xsempt siap..sedih...tp nak wat cmne..raya ttp raya..pakai jela apa yg ada....hurm..now feeling nak wat kerja pon semakin menipis..dlm fikiran menuggu jumaat..nak amik family kt klia..then trus pulang kampung..xsabarnye...

25 ramadhan 1430

this is my 1st entry ever for this blog...
hahaha..da create lama this..but nak menaip tu malas...weeeeeee

today is 25 ramadhan 1430...
25 ari da berpuasa...another few days nak raya....im so excited ..semangat raya berkobar2 sejak ahad lepas...sblm tu tak rasa nak raya pong...sebab apa???hehehe..ntah la...myb sbb ramadhan dis time xsemeriah yg lepas2 tok saya..
for dis ramadhan...almost everyday sahur n iftar kt rumah sorg2...mls nak berbuka kat lua...
n i realized this ramadhan...sy jadi seorang yg jimat cermat..tiada lagi membazir membeli juadah berbuka...tiada lagi terlebih makan..yeay!!!!save my money!!!

and last sunday...woke up in the morning..still berbelah bg...nak pegi shopping raya ke tidak..pusing2 1 rumah..sambil berpikir...duduk2 surf internet pikir lagi..rasa teramat la malas nk g shopping..xde kawan..tapi harus diakui..saya lebih suka pergi shopping sorang2...dr pergi dgn org laen...after pikir ulang kali...decided to go to sunway..shopping sakan..stat dat day la..semangat raya ku berkobar2..weeeeeeeeee.....tak sabar tunggu raya....selamat berpuasa